i just don’t know what to think/do/say anymore. i was doing so well with my fasting and exercising, and then one day i just ate for no particular reason.
that was three days ago. it suddenly hit me like a pile of rocks that i’m miserable. i want to recover, but by that i don’t mean i want to start eating again. i want to eat and not care. i don’t want to have the nutrition facts on every food memorized. i hate that i hate myself so much, but i hate myself more when i eat.
i’ve eaten between 500 and 1000 calories for the past few days and i feel AWFUL.
will someone PLEASSEEEE remind me of why i started losing weight in the first place, because i seem to have forgotten.